I'm done being strong. I don't think I have ever cried for as many hours as I did today. I started an hour before leaving Kevin and then continued my entire 2 1/2 hour drive home. This is a bitter sweet moment. My tears have dried up. I've known for a long time that this moment would come and it would be hard. It's hard, very, very hard. Leaving him at the hospital in his sparse room and knowing he is not able to attend the temple sealing of Sam and Michelle is a devastating feeling. I didn't know it would be this hard. And for everything I know about eternity and the blessings of the Gospel, doesn't make this moment easy. Someday we will look back at this time and see a clear picture of how it all came to be and why. Until then...we move forward, because that is what we do.
Kevin is my life, my breath and my joy. I am who I am because of him. My life without him is unimaginable. I am not ready for him to be anywhere but by my side for a very long time.