I found in my life that the most difficult decisions to make are those that are between two goods. Everyday I am here with Kevin is closer to the time that I need to leave him for Samuel's wedding. I wouldn't miss his wedding; I couldn't miss his wedding. And yet, I am also struggling with leaving Kevin. I know Kevin will be fine and I know that if a heart is available while I am away, he will be in good hands. Of course, I wish we both could be with Sam & Michelle, but going without him is starting to feel heavy on me. A good cry always does one well. We can't be "strong" all the time; we were given opposition for a reason. I am not leaving until next Tuesday night and then driving to San Diego Wednesday morning. It just hit me this morning that it will be here soon. I will enjoy being with our family again and seeing Jeremy & Alexandria and Samuel & Michelle. I look forward to also being with friends who will join us. I guess I'm feeling that if I address my feelings now that my flood gates will be under control at the wedding. I don't want to spoil something beautiful. Funny thing is that I do feel strong most of the time and that last time I cried was on Friday when we arrived at Kaiser Santa Clara. I felt much better after (crying in my car). And I am starting to feel better now as I am rambling. I know a lot of people are reading this blog and as a usually private person, I am not worried at all who reads this. We feel fortunate to have this means of communication to release and inform.
Thank you to everyone for your continued support.