The moment the call came about Kevin's heart, I was in the car with Sam and Caitlin. I was taking Sam to meet Michelle for their pre-wedding photo shoot on the beach and had left my phone at the beach house. Sam's phone was in the back of my car, unreachable, and Caitlin fortunately had her phone. Kevin had called my phone, Rebecca answered, when he asked where I was. Rebecca explained and then he told her. She ran down the hall of the beach house and announced to my family and Kevin's family that a heart was available. As tears of joy entered the room, they joined together for a prayer to bless Kevin through the surgery and to bless the donors family. Harold, Kevin's oldest brother offered the prayer. In the mean time, Kevin tried Sam's phone (unreachable) and then Caitlin's. She handed the phone to me. I heard him say something about a heart, but I couldn't really hear him and then in my sometimes inattentive way, I apologized for not having my phone and began to explain why. He stopped me mid-sentence and said, "They have a heart." I froze. A million things went through my head. I am not there, I am here. When will it start? How will I know he is well? What should I do? Can I do this? We hung up and I grabbed Caitlin's hand and we cried driving back to the beach house. We drove in silence. While I was happy about the heart for Kevin, I wasn't ready for it yet. In retrospect, everything happened as it should. While we were in the temple observing the marriage of Sam & Michelle, Kevin was in recovery, not thinking about being absent. While in the temple before the ceremony, I looked up and saw the chair empty that Kevin would have sat in, I started to cry, not so much that he wasn't there but with gratitude as to why he wasn't there. I was full of joy where tears just kept flowing. Jeremy, who would stand in for Kevin, came up to me and said, "Be strong for Sam." I pulled myself together and my mom came to sit next to me and held my hand. The rest of the day was beautiful. Sam and Michelle are so happy together. Our families and friends had a nice sit-down afternoon lunch hosted by the Morans. I was at ease because I handed off things I needed to do before I could leave to Leslie and my mom and sister, grateful for their willingness to help. Mostly at ease because I would be with Kevin soon.
We both are looking forward to going back to Lincoln to see our home, our girls, and our dog.