As soon as I get to 180 lbs, I'll post a picture of myself. That may require the consumption of quite a few Drumsticks, (Not chicken, rather the ice cream type) Finally, on Thursday, I began to feel better. This was just in time to begin chemotherapy on Friday and today I was down again. This is probably because I had an IV infusion of Cytoxan and began taking Revlimid. Notwithstanding, I feel like the antiviral treatment is working. However, I need to pace myself and not overdo things just because I wake up craving doughnuts.
Rebecca flies home tomorrow to visit for a week, which is exciting. She did well her last term at BYU and is now working until she begins school again in the Fall. Caitlin continues to be the most difficult teenager one could imagine, (I jest, she daily amazes us with her insight and compassion). As parents we somehow hit the jackpot to have such wonderful and responsible children. Clearly this is because I married way above myself. When the mother is a saint, you end up with angels. I must beware lest I become like my dad; the epitome of hyperbole.
It is hard to plan ahead when you can't predict how you will feel tomorrow. I look for a string of three good days to indicate a pattern. However, this Wednesday I begin Decadron, which means that by Friday I should be a bipolar zombie. I think Barbie will be out of town that day. Somewhat like 'Dr Jekyll, everybody hide'.
Everyone has been so incredibly supportive. I have fantastic doctors, wonderful colleagues and staff in our department and so many friends that encourage us. If I feel down, I read the comments that people post on this site and I am lifted. Thank you. We must continue to find the beauty in everyday. Yesterday I saw a elderly man completely bent over at the waist. He could barely walk, and yet he slowly moved through the farmers' market with his daughter picking out fruit. What courage it must require of him just to leave the house. Today it rained, it rarely rains here in July and I just love that smell of fresh rain on hot pavement. What beauty did you experience today?